Monday, January 2
Since Last Year & For This Year @ Monday, January 02, 2012
Student Life
It's 2012 and I'm still alive here with all this final semester things going around. Have to take my final exam starting this week until the next two weeks and after that I have to do my practicum at Sabah for 3 months period. Means that I didn't go back there since last year (I feel terrible about it but now I'm okay).
Personal Life
Being a son and the only son that taking degree course in the family make me stress and down. For real, I'm tired of all this with all the siblings in the family especially my parents ask me to do that and this..must that and this..I'm a human and being a human I do have feelings. Sometimes, it made me so down and sad. Why me? Why not my brothers? Well, when I think back again, thinking more sane and wisely, in the end it's not for them but for myself. College is like a running track and life is a race and to achieve my own personal golden triumph, I must do and let out the best in me. Again, it's for me and not for someone else. I thank my family for letting me study and learn about life in my own will and not demanding something else that I don't like with my life. Personally, the most important matter in everything we do is God. Without God's love, we will never be who we are now and I thank God for His bless, love, patient and kindness to me. Ya... I feel blessed (Amen).
She Is The Only Exception & Honesty Is The Best Policy
I wanna say thanks to Jessica for being such a wonderful person from the beginning of our relationship. I appreciate all the things that she did and gave to me. Honestly, she is not a beauty pageant, not a princess and all but I still love her very much. I'm no prince charming and she still put me in her heart. I thank God for bring her into my life. I don't know what will happen to both of us in the future so both of us decided to live our life and giving our best for the present and I think that is more important rather than worrying for something that everyone don't know accept God. May God bless our relationship. *finger crossed
New Year, May God Have Mercy On Us
I think it's funny to see all people around me celebrating new year's eve with drinking, drunk and so on...let us relax and think again..how if God just extend the judgement day for the one last time and give all the people in this world a one last chance to do good deeds and be loyal to Him? Think, and that's all for now. Until then.
"Humble but still the best seed"
Labels: Content, Heart, me and my life, Ramblings
Saturday, December 3
5 Questions You Should Never Ask Your Girlfriend @ Saturday, December 03, 2011
Let’s face it, women have the ability to read much more into a question than is meant.
For instance, a guy asks what the time is, and she hears, “I’m bored, I want to leave, I wonder if this relationship is working for me, I think I may be able to escape in the next few minutes, I wonder what I am doing here?” He wanted to know what the time was, because he needs to take his tablet an hour after supper.
So what do the following questions mean to women?
Are you going to be much longer?
She hears : Here I am sitting on my backside waiting in the car, while you are packing the baby’s bag, sorting out the dog, wrapping the birthday present, dealing with YOUR mother’s phonecall, setting the alarm and locking the house. What is taking you so long?
Why does this question irritate women?
This question merely reveals your husband/boyfriend’s complete lack of understanding about what it takes to get ready to go on the road. And this is what makes women angry. Leave it to the man in your life, and you will arrive at the party without a present, without clean nappies for the baby, and to top it all, a call from the alarm company, saying the armed response says the dog is trotting around inside the house and they hope that is what set off the alarm.
She hears : Here I am sitting on my backside waiting in the car, while you are packing the baby’s bag, sorting out the dog, wrapping the birthday present, dealing with YOUR mother’s phonecall, setting the alarm and locking the house. What is taking you so long?
Why does this question irritate women?
This question merely reveals your husband/boyfriend’s complete lack of understanding about what it takes to get ready to go on the road. And this is what makes women angry. Leave it to the man in your life, and you will arrive at the party without a present, without clean nappies for the baby, and to top it all, a call from the alarm company, saying the armed response says the dog is trotting around inside the house and they hope that is what set off the alarm.
Don’t you think you should start running again?
She hears : You are getting fat and I think it is because you are not getting enough exercise. Pick up two more kilo’s and I am out of here.
Why does this question irritate women?It makes them feel that they are being prescribed to in how they should look, what they should wear in order to be found acceptable. Men just don’t understand that many women deal with baby blues or the difficult boss by eating a second slice of chocolate cake, followed by a cream caramel delight, rum ‘n raisin ice cream and rounded off with a sweetie pie.
She hears : You are getting fat and I think it is because you are not getting enough exercise. Pick up two more kilo’s and I am out of here.
Why does this question irritate women?It makes them feel that they are being prescribed to in how they should look, what they should wear in order to be found acceptable. Men just don’t understand that many women deal with baby blues or the difficult boss by eating a second slice of chocolate cake, followed by a cream caramel delight, rum ‘n raisin ice cream and rounded off with a sweetie pie.
What’s for supper?
She hears: Your place is in the kitchen. I don’t care if your work a full day like I do, supper is your responsibility and I am hungry.
Why does this question irritate women?
It makes them feel as if the bulk of the household responsibilities is still theirs, even if they work fulltime or earn more than their husbands. Especially if they shopped for the food, cooked yesterday and put three loads of washing through the machine in the last 24 hours.
She hears: Your place is in the kitchen. I don’t care if your work a full day like I do, supper is your responsibility and I am hungry.
Why does this question irritate women?
It makes them feel as if the bulk of the household responsibilities is still theirs, even if they work fulltime or earn more than their husbands. Especially if they shopped for the food, cooked yesterday and put three loads of washing through the machine in the last 24 hours.
What was your previous boyfriend like?
She hears: I don’t like the thought of your being with anyone else, even if I didn’t know you then. I really want to hear that he was a right royal jerk, useless in bed, couldn’t hold down a job and generally disliked by all your family and friends.
Why does this question irritate women?
It makes them feel cornered – previous boyfriends are actually private territory and have nothing to do with present relationships. When women are hesitant to discuss previous relationships, men often react as if they are somehow being excluded and as if the woman has something to hide. We all have secrets and private things about which we don’t talk to anyone.
She hears: I don’t like the thought of your being with anyone else, even if I didn’t know you then. I really want to hear that he was a right royal jerk, useless in bed, couldn’t hold down a job and generally disliked by all your family and friends.
Why does this question irritate women?
It makes them feel cornered – previous boyfriends are actually private territory and have nothing to do with present relationships. When women are hesitant to discuss previous relationships, men often react as if they are somehow being excluded and as if the woman has something to hide. We all have secrets and private things about which we don’t talk to anyone.
Who was that you were talking to?
She hears: I don’t trust you. I don’t like you talking to other men. You’re mine, mine, mine and don’t you forget it. How much did that smile really mean?
Why does this question irritate women? It makes them feel as if they are being treated like possessions and not human beings. Everyone needs friends and women certainly do not want to sleep with every man they smile at. Heavens, that would include the 72-year-old butcher on the corner.
She hears: I don’t trust you. I don’t like you talking to other men. You’re mine, mine, mine and don’t you forget it. How much did that smile really mean?
Why does this question irritate women? It makes them feel as if they are being treated like possessions and not human beings. Everyone needs friends and women certainly do not want to sleep with every man they smile at. Heavens, that would include the 72-year-old butcher on the corner.
Labels: Heart, questions, Ramblings
Wednesday, July 6
I Realized Who I Am @ Wednesday, July 06, 2011
Yesterday is a good day for me. Average. Nothing special happen. Until just now. I'm not sure if I did something wrong to someone somehow, that person keep being sarcastic with me. I know that I'm not that type of guy which know almost anything and hunger for credit and compliment. I am no mreverything. Sorry to say that, I don't like being treated like what just happened. I didn't ask for everything not even worshiping me. Just a little respect..little....that's all. But I did say sorry to that person and I'm sincere when I'm saying that. Hope that person can forgive me if I did any wrong to her. Please understand me and I will try to understand you.
p/s Whatever happen, the feeling still will be the same. Nothing change. <3 you
Labels: Heart
Saturday, July 2
Rufus Wainwright- Hallelujah (Lyrics) @ Saturday, July 02, 2011
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Saturday, April 30
I Do @ Saturday, April 30, 2011
It's 01/May/2011 and my 4 months vacation start now. Will take my flight to Sabah this coming Thursday and can't wait to meet all my friends and family especially my loved one. Maybe this blog will not active in that period. So, I hope you guys/girls don't stop following me cos I'll be back in September.
Exam all done and I hope will pass in flying colors. Even some of the papers are extra hard but at least I did try my best for it.
Heart: Faith Love Hope. She did post something about me in her blog today. It's sweet and I know that she's always care for me no matter what. My mom once said to me, "It's not easy to find someone that truly care and love you in any way". I still remember that and I'm so grateful that I have the chance to know someone like her. Since I realized that I'm not that good looking and sometimes peoples around me also can't stand with my attitude, I'm glad that she never give up on me. I really appreciate everything she had done to me and also for us. How can I repay that...
Heart, can't wait to meet and go dating with you again~Labels: Heart, me and my life
Sunday, April 24
Simple Yet, Special @ Sunday, April 24, 2011
All started with a simple "hi". Suddenly feels so eagerly to write down something in here. This story is taken from a true story and was
Scene #1: In a small dim, dusty, littered room, with faded green wall, a guy with his lappy was chatting with someone on the internet.
Guy: Hi...^^
Girl: Hey...
Guy: I'm your friend's friend..he is our mutual friend, so can we be friend?
Girl: LOL so many friend word ah..okay, I'm okay with it..^^
Guy: Thanks, can you approve me then?
Girl: Owh, okay, wait a sec..
Guy: Patiently...^^
Girl: Okay, now we are friend. Btw, Who are you?
Guy: I'm just an average Joe..btw, that's my name..LOL
Girl: Well, at least you have a name. Can't chat too long, Have to wake up early tomorrow..nice chat btw...^^
Guy: Owh..okay, hope can chat with you again next time..
Actually the scene after this happen months after the 1st scene and they've know each other well...
Scene #2: The day before the guy's birthday and he's talking to the girl trough phone...
Guy: Emm..tomorrow is my birthday..^^
Girl: Noticed it...^^
Guy: Any wish..?
Girl: Too early..LOL
Guy: LOL tomorrow can wish...^^
Girl: Yepp..
(Awkward moment when a guy wanna say something important to a girl but too shy to let it out)
Guy: Well, I have something to tell you
Girl: What is it?
Guy: Do you still remember the green light you gave me once?
Girl: Which green light?
Guy: Errr..there's only one green light you gave me
Girl: Owh..! that green light..it's still green you know...LOL
Guy: Really? Owh..okay, can I ask you something then..?
Girl: Sure, what is it again?
Guy: Can I be the owner for the green light?
Girl: what do you mean?
(Awkward moment again... =.=")
Guy: Err..I mean, can I be your boyfriend?
Girl: You are my boyfriend..LOL
Guy: I mean the one that truly in your heart..special one
Girl: Hmmm..
Guy: It's okay, no need to answer it right now...^^"
Girl: Well...are you sure?
Guy: Sure..?
Girl: Are you really sure you want to be my boyfriend? cos, I wanna give you the green light
Guy: (Now or never!) YES I'm sure and I wanna be your boyfriend
Girl: Okay then..YES I wanna be your girlfriend too
Guy: Is it official?
Girl: No it isn't...make sure you meet me when you comeback to Sabah or I'll just assume that you aren't serious about this
Guy: (It's 12.00 midnight) I will and thanks cos gave me the best birthday present ever..YOU
Girl: Well, happy birthday..I'm happy for you...^^
(They did chat after that but the writer thinks it's confidential..LOL)
Scene #3: Sabah. At Suria..LOL
Guy: Hi...^^
Girl: Eh, it's you!
Guy: Well, it's me..and ya, it's you..^^"
Awkward moment when a couple meet for the 1st time..
I don't wanna write more of this story cos, It's a very typical story and everyone knows what happen next . They're still in love with each other until now and they hope their story will become a never ending story.
**It's been 8 months and 3 weeks (Official) Just hoping the best for them..it's all started with a simple "hi" to each other. But it's a special story for both of them.
Labels: Heart, me and my life
Wednesday, April 20
The Key I Gave You @ Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Don't Ever Throw Away That Key. It Cannot Be Replaced
Labels: Heart
Tuesday, April 12
The best part about being in a relationship @ Tuesday, April 12, 2011
It’s knowing that you can turn to someone whenever you need them. It’s having someone to sleep next to, to hug and to kiss when your days seem bleak. Just those things alone can brighten up your day. It’s knowing that someone loves you back. It’s getting a call or text in the morning saying, “Good morning babe x”. It’s knowing that someone accepts you for who you are. It’s when you sleep over each other’s houses but you don’t do anything besides watching movies or playing video games. Then after you get to wake up while they’re still asleep. It’s looking at them and then remembering how lucky you are to have someone like them in your life. Those are the best parts.
Labels: Heart
Sunday, April 3
Frustrated @ Sunday, April 03, 2011
Yesterday. Bad...oOo...really2 bad day for me. DiGi cut my credit until the balance turn to 0. Cannot text anyone that I wanna text. My back pain still "smile" at me. After play some futsal, it turn to be more pain. I don't know whats wrong with me. Back to DiGi..
Well, I can't text her today. I didn't pick up all her phone calls. I regret that. Just being in a wrong place with a wrong time. I'm not ignoring I'm not forgetting anybody. Just one of my unlucky day. But some people don't understand and never give me the chance to explain anything. Well, up to them. I don't care anymore. In the end, I'm not the one who make wrong turn. What I want is a little of your time to explain but yeah, I don't deserve that chance. Nevermind. Really, it's nothing.
What I want for now is a quite, peace, slow, and cold weekend. I just need a rest from all this. So, please don't bother..I don't need that chance anymore. I have to change. Be away from all this. The final paper is more important. Until next time.
Labels: Heart, me and my life
Tuesday, October 12
Oh My...Oh My...I Miss Her So Much... @ Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Missing You By Calley ©krysty
I miss you like the deserts miss the rain,
almost gone on a wilderness campaign.
I miss you like the trees the sun in winter,
Come back and be their electrostatic printer.
Bring back the days of laughter,
Abandon whatsoever you quest after.
Make gone this total eclipse;
Blow the darkness with the rays from your lips.
Come back and once more let's meander,
be the mistress, my heart's commander.
Don't abandon your fleet to sink,
Come to my rescue, save without a wink.
Erase the thoughts from that awful night;
Make its thought be gone on a one-way flight.
Don't make it stay like an indelible ink,
but erase from the memory with an eye's blink.
Let a fresh start be at hand,
Let the flowers blossom on this cultivated land.
Let your smile be the rays and love its fertilizer,
Let your hand be the source for a neutralizer.
I miss you like the deserts miss the rain,
almost gone on a wilderness campaign.
I miss you like the trees the sun in winter,
Come back and be their electrostatic printer.
Bring back the days of laughter,
Abandon whatsoever you quest after.
Make gone this total eclipse;
Blow the darkness with the rays from your lips.
Come back and once more let's meander,
be the mistress, my heart's commander.
Don't abandon your fleet to sink,
Come to my rescue, save without a wink.
Erase the thoughts from that awful night;
Make its thought be gone on a one-way flight.
Don't make it stay like an indelible ink,
but erase from the memory with an eye's blink.
Let a fresh start be at hand,
Let the flowers blossom on this cultivated land.
Let your smile be the rays and love its fertilizer,
Let your hand be the source for a neutralizer.
Labels: Heart
Tuesday, September 28
Let Me Tell You @ Tuesday, September 28, 2010
When I wake up beside you, I'd tell you how perfect you look. I'd tell you that you're more beautiful than the sunlight gracing your face and hair. And I know you'd smile. I know you'd blush, because that's the way you are, and you'd flash me the warmest of smiles that stops my heart from beating every single time. And I'd tell you how beautiful you are and how immaculate you look but you'd just hit me on the shoulder and tell me I'm lying. I'm not though, and I'd never lie to you.
We'd go out, probably for lunch and eat somewhere classy. I'd take you to the finest restaurant in town just because you deserve that much. But you'd never agree to it. You'd take me somewhere I never knew existed and we'd eat there. I'd have the envy of the entire world. The waiter would spill the soup on my shirt and you'd frown, because that's just the way you are. I'd smile though, not because I like the pain but because of the very simple fact that I'm with you.
We'd walk in the park and I'd hold your hand. You'd blush of course, because that's just the way you are, and I'd tell you that I'm never going to let it go if I could. We'd find a spot near the lake and, as we sit down on the grass to talk, I'd have the envy of the world. I'd tell you that we must have found the perfect spot in the whole park and then you'd smile. And then I'd tell you that while you're beside me though, it all completely disappears. You'd smile again, brighter this time, and you'd tell me I'm lying; but trust me, I'm not.
We'd go home and I'd cook you dinner. I'd burn the steak or I'd forget to cool the wine. But you'd probably just smile and tell me it was perfect, even though it's not, because that's just the way you are. We'd talk for hours on the roof deck of the building. Your eyes would sparkle brighter than the bright lights of the city. I'd tell you that but you'd just tell me I'm lying. You'd look at the dark night sky and you'd tell me that someday you'll be famous and then it would be my turn to smile because I know for a fact that you already are even though you don't need to be. And then I'd have the envy of the entire world.
We'd go to bed and I'd sprawl my arms to hold you. You'd smirk first then you'd hold me instead, because that's just the way you are. And then you'd fall asleep, silent like the slumbering world. I'd kiss you, lightly, and I'd tell you I love you. And in that moment while being with you, I would have the envy of the world. I'd tell you, as you slept, that I've never been happier in my entire life. I'd tell you that I never regretted the decision that I would love you forever when I saw you the very first time—during that beautiful afternoon when you dimmed everything else and you became my world. I'd kiss you, lightly, and I'd never sleep when my very dreams are right beside me.
I smile to myself now. I'd tell myself that I'm going to tell you tomorrow and that whatever would happen is beyond me; but then I'd ask myself if I could ever bear the dream to shatter. I'd ask myself the same damning question I ask myself everyday and I'd always not have an answer. My life might shatter the very moment you are no longer my dreams. Would I, could I, should I risk the dream for a better or worse reality? I'd take to the sky and fly with these wings crafted from my will; but I'd fall, like Icarus, because that's just the way you are.
Labels: Heart
Sunday, September 12
Confession @ Sunday, September 12, 2010
DEAR,
YOU'RE THE BEST THING ABOUT ME
!!!
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Wednesday, September 8
@ Wednesday, September 08, 2010
We had a fight last night. Due to the small things that are not important to us. Perhaps I am a fool for too easily feel uneasy about a matter that should not be the cause anything stupid like this. Sometimes I become less sensitive to her. Now she is insisting the result of stupidity and weakness of mine. I don't like when she ignore me. But sometimes, I also do the same to her. ohhh...how I hate this feeling..dear, please forgive me for what I've done to you...sy sayang dear tau.....(puppy eyes)
Labels: Heart
Inside but feel outside @ Wednesday, September 08, 2010
I hope you know.
that I always tried.
to be a good man until my last breath.
that I always tried.
to be a good man until my last breath.
I can't pretend.
that I didn't have a feeling for you.
you make me feel like I am free again.
let me kiss you.
let me hold you.
every step you take.
every words you said.
that I didn't have a feeling for you.
you make me feel like I am free again.
let me kiss you.
let me hold you.
every step you take.
every words you said.
I just know that
...
...
I'll be yours
forever
forever
Labels: Heart
Apology @ Wednesday, September 08, 2010
SORRY
MY MISTAKE
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Tuesday, September 7
I Learn... @ Tuesday, September 07, 2010
I really love her, I let her know
The best thing is, I never know what will happen the next minute
I learn to build a life together with her
Me and her learn to love each other
For who we are, not for what we are
I Love You
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Sunday, September 5
True @ Sunday, September 05, 2010
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Sunday, August 29
@ Sunday, August 29, 2010
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Friday, August 27
SMILE @ Friday, August 27, 2010
She always shine my day with her SMILE
(sorry...I "kidnap" your pic...XD)
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Is it love? @ Friday, August 27, 2010
If I hugged you,
would you never let go?
If I kissed you,
would you cherish that moment?
If I reached for your hand,
would you take mine gently?
If I needed a shoulder,
would you let me cry on yours?
If I needed to talk,
would you really listen?
If I needed to scream,
would you do it with me?
If I needed to go,
would you come with me?
If I fell for you,
would you catch me?
or just let me hit the pavement?
Labels: Heart