Monday, October 4
God, I hope You can hear and read this @ Monday, October 04, 2010
I really want to tell her all my problems but I don't know how because I never used to tell anybody else about my personal problems even with my ex before. I know I suck at this but I learn a lot of good things since I know her personally. I learn how to share and ask for good advice with someone I trust especially her.
I hope she forgive me for what I've done to her because she didn't deserve all this, if I hurt her feelings over and over again. I don't know how to handle this anymore. Hope in God's hands I will get through all this. Today, I didn't txt her as much as I did always because I'm busy with all this assignment and class stuff also I need some space for my own to breathe and rethink all this problems again and again. She assuming that I was ignoring her and avoid to talk to her. Oh my...oh my..what can I do now? I can't think of anything right now. Just want somebody to talk with. But, I'm nobody here..no family or even friends that I trust to share with. All I have is her..but now she don't want to talk with me even txting me because she pissed at me. I feel hopeless and useless this one whole day. My family also ignoring me. I don't know why they do this to me. I feel don't want to go back home or even think to go back to Sabah again for the rest of my life. If..if I had a job here then it would be easy for me..have my own house here..Maybe I'm not going back there for real this end of year. Today, my friend call me crazy because I almost hit by a car while on the way to class. I don't know what is in my mind that time. I felt like I'm somewhere else, not even at home. I feel I want to die...I REALLY HOPE YOU ALL UNDERSTAND ME but you're not. Better I quiet forever.
Labels: Hopeless
Monday, October 4
God, I hope You can hear and read this @ Monday, October 04, 2010
I really want to tell her all my problems but I don't know how because I never used to tell anybody else about my personal problems even with my ex before. I know I suck at this but I learn a lot of good things since I know her personally. I learn how to share and ask for good advice with someone I trust especially her.
I hope she forgive me for what I've done to her because she didn't deserve all this, if I hurt her feelings over and over again. I don't know how to handle this anymore. Hope in God's hands I will get through all this. Today, I didn't txt her as much as I did always because I'm busy with all this assignment and class stuff also I need some space for my own to breathe and rethink all this problems again and again. She assuming that I was ignoring her and avoid to talk to her. Oh my...oh my..what can I do now? I can't think of anything right now. Just want somebody to talk with. But, I'm nobody here..no family or even friends that I trust to share with. All I have is her..but now she don't want to talk with me even txting me because she pissed at me. I feel hopeless and useless this one whole day. My family also ignoring me. I don't know why they do this to me. I feel don't want to go back home or even think to go back to Sabah again for the rest of my life. If..if I had a job here then it would be easy for me..have my own house here..Maybe I'm not going back there for real this end of year. Today, my friend call me crazy because I almost hit by a car while on the way to class. I don't know what is in my mind that time. I felt like I'm somewhere else, not even at home. I feel I want to die...I REALLY HOPE YOU ALL UNDERSTAND ME but you're not. Better I quiet forever.
Labels: Hopeless
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